Breaking the Silence

You may have noticed that for the last year, I've been rather quiet. I haven't emailed much or published much. 

You may have been caught up in your own life. 

Most people assume "busyness"

And while yes, there have many things I've had to address, the bigger truth is that "I'VE BEEN BECOMING" 

Not more

Not bigger

Not different

More like "COMING HOME TO MYSELF IN A DEEPER WAY I HAD BEFORE"

Like many people, for a long time I kept measuring progress by: 

• Clients
• Money
• Learning
• Creating
  
• Launching
• Planning the next thing

I often got frustrated that often when I was very busy with clients, and I felt like I didn't CREATE any writing, paintings, poems, etc. 

But when things would slow down and I had time to do all those things, then I'd beat myself up for not helping more people, having more clients, making more money, and I just couldn't ever win. 

I often felt like I was falling behind, or I was missing something. 

This past year I discovered something else:

"Sometimes the deepest transformation doesn't happen while we are moving forward. 

It happens when we are brave enough to face what is coming up, and are willing to face it, process it and integrate it."

This past year, I faced a heartbreaking breakup and a sharp transition in my life. 

This time I didn't try to outrun it. 

I didn't try to keep moving. 

I did what might felt unthinkable.

I STOPPED

I GRIEVED

I ALLOWED THE MASKS TO FALL AWAY

I ALLOWED 

I SAT IN THE UNKNOWN

I FACED THE PAIN, THE GRIEF, THE DISAPPOINTMENT, THE DISINTEGRATION

AND TRUSTED

I Trusted that having the COURAGE to FACE whatever was here, WOULD TEACH ME SOMETHING; 

That I would have greater understanding

And that I would come through on the other side. 

I did what I needed to do to be a human in our society. 

And I embraced a NEW RHYTHM...

One that was based less on accomplishing, and more on listening, feeling, processing, understanding, thinking, writing...

I realize that what initially felt like an interruption to my life had quietly become an invitation. 

"Sometimes the greatest act of courage isn't finding a way to keep up with the world. 

It's trusting that stepping off the productivity train doesn't mean you have fallen behind. It may simply be life's invitation to welcome stillness for a season- 

THE VERY PATH THAT LEADS YOU HOME- to your own wisdom, your own truth, and ultimately your own soul.

To finally see the GEM that was there all along. "

Many of you know that one of the traditions that has profoundly influenced both my personal life and my work is The Hawaiian Healing Tradition of Huna. 

Huna has helped me bring together many experiences and seemingly unrelated studies into a coherent whole. It has allowed me to walk through the fire and come out refined, not burned. 

One of the most powerful parts of its teaching is that we are not separate from nature. 

But rather that WE ARE NATURE. 

That the same elements that shape the world, also shape us. 

Fire

Air

Water

Earth

As I reflected on these this past year, I realized that the two elements that have been predominant in my life have been Air and Fire. 

AIR- functions primarily in the Mental Body/ Sphere. It gave me:

• Ideas
• Curiosity
• Endless Possibilities
• Understanding
• Teaching

FIRE- lives in  Spiritual Body/ Sphere. It gave me:

• Vision
• Passion
• Creativity
• Courage
• Speed

 I love these elements, they have served me well, and they are also both quick, and fickle. 

Like everything, many of you have heard me say this a lot: 

"Any good thing, can become a bad thing when taken to the Extreme."

These two elements can become imbalanced

Fire can leave you exhausted and depleted. 

Air can move from one thing to the other, and leave things literally "hanging in the air"  or "living in the clouds". 

Things people have said to me at different times. 

For a few years since I have been studying Huna, I have been working on connecting with the other two elements, and this year, I allowed these two to guide me instead. 

WATER- lives primarily in the Emotional Body/ Sphere

It made space for:

• Grief
• Rest
• Forgiveness
• Healing
• Receiving
• Allowing
• Trusting that NOT every season is meant for producing or harvesting

EARTH- Lives primarily in the Physical Body/ Sphere

• Grounding
• Steadiness
• Deliberate
• Structured
• Patient
• Dense
• Still

And for me quite honestly one of the hardest elements to connect to. So this year, I chose to invite and connect to EARTH by planting and tending a garden. 

So many lessons I will share at a different time. 

But I slowed down enough to PLAN HOW I would design and plant it in a very small space. 

I put my hands in soil

I discovered that seeds don't sprout simply because we want them to or WHEN we want them to

That each plant has their own rhythm, their own preference, their own cycle.

And that sometimes 

"Despite all my love, efforts, attention, watering, tending...plants still die."

Which allowed me to recognize we can create the right conditions

We can love

We can tend

We can put everything we have

And then we need to RELEASE IT

Trust The Universe

Learn from the process

And  recognize that ultimately 

"We are always in co-creation."

With our environment, with opportunities, with our loved ones, with the elements, with nature. 

We cannot FORCE outcomes. We can learn to attune, adapt, and move WITH our environment. 

When we learn how to FLOW together, to attune, to listen, to ALLOW...

We create the most ideal conditions, for the seed to sprout. 

So yes, I have been quieter...

Not disappearing...

Processing....Integrating. 

And I wouldn't trade this season for anything. 

I don't believe I am a different person.

I think I HAVE COME BACK MORE FULLY INTO MYSELF. 

And surprisingly, My HEART has NOT shrunk

It has EXPANDED

I have allowed and integrated the more Spiritual and Philosophical part of me to be more prevalent. 

For it to SPEAK MORE. TO FINALLY BREAK THE SILENCE

To come out of the closet and integrate along the psychology, neuroscience, high performance, NLP, and leadership. Alongside my reflections regarding HUNA and the deep transformation it's had in my life and others. 

Not abstract concepts of ancient wisdom, but rather grounded, integrated practices that have genuinely changed the way I live, love, lead and release to others. 

You may hear about other ancient sciences such as astrology, numerology or even Tarot. All insightful and powerful ancient practices that I have been engaging with for quite some time, but seldom shared. 

I can NOW see the GESTALT, THE INTEGRATION of many of these traditions and practices and how they can provide powerful change in each of our lives. 

There is a season where silence may be the soil that allows the seed to sprout and transform.

And it gives way to a season where speaking our truth, sharing our wisdom, and singing our song allows for the breeze to carry us to the next season.

Thank you for allowing me to share this journey with you. 

And I invite you to reflect about you:

1. WHAT IS THE RHYTHM THAT YOUR LIFE AND SOUL ARE ASKING OF YOU TODAY? 
2. WHAT ARE YOU RESISTING OR PUSHING AGAINST, THAT PERHAPS NEEDS TO BE ALLOWED TO COME IN AND BRING YOU HOME?

Over the coming weeks, I'd love to share more about how some of these practices provided a powerful sense of grounding, trust, and understanding. If any of this resonates with you, I invite you to join my dear friend Lance and I to our upcoming HUNA WORKSHOP in a just few weeks.

Whether you choose to join one of our live workshops or not, I hope these reflections can offer a meaningful perspective for your own journey. 

You can check out our HUNA IN PERSON EVENT HERE.

I'd love to welcome you and give you a REAL HUG!